家人 Means Family

Family should protect their own family’s member.
Family should care for each other.
Trust is important to hold in each and every one of us.
So forgive and understanding should have it in family also right?

But now I can’t stop crying because of family.
My little heart breaks into pieces because of them.
It was so happening and real dramatic.

Neighbour may be your friend and enemy too.
You do not know when they will harm you.
It was the stupid neighbour who messes up my family.
I hate them totally inside and out.

My parents seldom fight or argue.
This is the first and headache problem I ever see.
I’m sad to see them quarrel and having cold war over there.
My heart totally in pain and shattered...

Tears are words the heart can’t express.
Hopefully everything turns well after few days just like how we are last time.

Sheffield, UK

Before I continue the others entry, I would like to write this one first because I update quite slow one lorh, haha.

Why Sheffield? Because my sis, Kelly is going there for 4 month to study!

Although is only 4 month but we already miss her just after we leave the airport :’(

I only got one picture of her…

With the sopo look over there, hahaha!

The picture is not with me, I will continue this in others post after I get the others picture from my sis :)

I will miss you Kelly :(

WTF!

I’m really mad sad right now! The assignment I do until so hard and wrote damn 4000++ words, end up what do I get???!! FAIL??? I get fail as a reward for the assignment?!

I’m damn depressed and I feel the hope is gone far away from me. I can’t see my star near me, just leave me in the dark alone to cry. Was it because it is the first time I meet failure in college?

The word “sad” can’t describe how sad I am. I feel so hopeless right now…

What can I do? Re-sit the paper? I’m tired to think about it.

Mad sad but can’t cry it out.

I’m so scared to tell my dad about this… shall tell him after all results are release.

Two more subject to go but the spirit of my soul is dead...

I need something to cheer me back! I know it is not the end of the world yet!

But what to do?

Argh, FML!

Home Alone :(

As i said before, about Ah Pong Bang Ka's son marry.. so today is the day my family went to Penang to attend their wedding dinner. Wuwuwu, and because of exam i have to stay at home in order to finish my study :( Well, not only me did not go but my eldest sis too.. She said she need to study but tho she left me at home with her friend, lol !

I suppose to do revision at home and because of them left home for 2 days, i have to do laundry as my mum asked and boil soup for myself and sis. Hehehe, it was my 1st time to make soup, so i din expect much how tasty it is. Ingredient was limited as i only have 2 tomato, 1 carrot, 3 onions and 2 piece of meat. Hahaha, i bet u know what soup i'm going to make :D YES! it was ABC soup lor... hahah! Sigh, no potato eh.. it would be nicer if Mr. Potato was here!

Boiled For 5hours

Ok! done all the housework , it's time to do revision !! Memorise 4 pages of essay for CTC and 8 pages of essays for Law paper is not a easy work but this is what i have to do ! I don't know how my course mate are going to do their revision but this is my plan and strategy.. lol, hahaha sound so pro eh :p

It was so boring larr.. now i know how the lonely person feel =_________= I am abit lazy after 3 hours of revision, so went down and watch tv. You know what ?? the time i use to watch TV is more than the time i use to do revision, hahaha! Wheee ~ my "Lou Foh Tong" was done! I used exactly 5 hours to boiled that soup and it was ichiban !! :p Eh, i din "chui niu " ok!

"Chui Niu" in English called "Blow Cow"..HAHAHAHA!! i was just joking.. it means like praising myself or said something that is incorrect laarr. Hehehe, enough for jokes and now back to focusing on my exam syllabus :DD

Digi Campus

Yesterday dinner was yada yada (no no) !! It made my stomach upset and diarrhoea. My mum and elder sis suffered the same thing too ! The food is not tasty also.. We would never ever go there and eat again !! Waste money only laar !

My sis introduced me about the Digi Campus thing and i found it quite good, especially for poor student like me ! What's it about ?? This available for student who study in college and university not high school. That's why they named it as Digi Campus :D BUT only colleges and universities stated in Uni list can register ! Once you registered, it activated up to 4 years !


Digi user who wanted to change it to Digi Campus is F.O.C

Each student is limited to Digi Campus only !

Individual below 25 years old !

Omg ! it's really cheap right ?? Call up to RM 2 and it is free for the whole day !

Remember to bring your I/C and student ID ! Don't so careless like me.. I forget to bring but luckily the lady let me subscript as i only bring the College Fees Card, lol ! Later, we went to A&W for Root Beer. Long time din go A&W already and i think the last time i had A&W was 8 years ago... I don't like to drink float and i only prefer original Root Beer. But my elder sis bought 2 float -_______- So swt.. nvm ler, it's ok de.. just drink below it oklor !

I want original :(

Hey buddy ! Long time no see !!

Did you ever get A&W's mask and paper head band before ?

Hahaaha, i guess u had it :DDD !!

It's Over

3 missing

Yahooo ! I had sit for the last paper and means that exam is over ! No not only that, it's also means that my FIC course also come to the end. It was damn fast and it's already 1 year, just like a blink of an eyes.. Huhuh, so miss them laaa. Time to say bye bye lur bcause i'm taking different course for my degree.. Lols, but we still can hang out together wan ma. You can call or sms me to hang out together :DD FIC ended not that means the whole thing also ended. Friendship are going if we're still holding this together.

I already applied for my Business & Marketing course and i had paid for the registeration fees. I only have to wait for the timetable and to know when the course begin. I wonder how is the degree life. Sure very scary huh ! When i think about degree, it means that i'm getting older and older lol.. and my teenager life is going to left me soon !

Now i'm on holiday ! I hope that i have a longer holiday bcause 3 week is not enough ok.. Others people also have " at least '' 1 month laar after one courses ended but i only have 3 week.. You all fast fast plan the karaoke thing la.. Yesterday i dreamt that my money had used up before the karaoke, yum cha and gai gai session. My dad keep asking when is our holiday. It look like my dad catch up some plan. So i don't know if he really got plan or what.. If out of sudden my dad say wanna go somewhere else to holiday and it crash with the date for whom my friend plan outing for the same day ! I'm sorry to say that, i'm not going with you all.. I have to follow my dad bcause i don't want to be alone in the house for the night. You know Chinese Ghost Festival coming lar.. harharhar.. So you know la, it's so scary wan ma right ~ Who haven plan, faster plan and let me know kays :DD

Happy or Sad ??

I'm always look happy :D Happy is good, that why i always put smile on my face and laugh often. Happy people won't have so much worries and tense ! A happy person make the world look more beautiful :DD So do laugh and smile often kays ? But but but.. i dunno why these few day.. sometimes i will feel sad and wanted to cry. I don't why and just wanted to cry for no reason ! However, it only happened when i am alone. This is because when i'm with bunch of friends i won't think that much but when i'm alone i will think TOO much ! Only these few day larr.. i'm not always feel this way.. Haiya, i just dunno why... Did i need to find psychology ? haahha ! Or someone be my psychology but i dunno what to tell bcause i already said that i dunno why i feel THIS WAY ! No worries.. as i said it only happen when i'm

Sick:(

Herher ! i fall sick liao.. not fever la just a common flu :D but i feel very weak and cold ! Inside my mouth there also got ulcer :( Very pain la but it's recovery soon.. Makan susah, tidur susah and even talk hor also susah. My pronunciation also got a little bit problem lor.. and sometimes talk nonsense too :p

Want eat medicine but cannot overdose.. My friends said if i eat too much, when i old that time will have kidney failure--' but i really can't tahan ma, hahaa. However, what they said is true also geh.. i also don't wan die in such an early age la, hahaa.. very "yan wong" wan lor. ( hakka in canto means cham ) Okla i listen yours de la k? :D

But i sick also doesn't look like sick.. haiz.. seem normal, hahah! Why i got flu de ? Blame who ? YOU LA !

YUCKS ! What a Bad Day :(

Bad day not only refers to me and it refers to the others too. Today don't know why so many unfortunately thing happen. The 1st victim of course not me la, hahaha !


1st victim.

It was Jack, my friend who had been cheated for RM 20. Why ?? Oh well... hahah, maybe he was too kind and easily influenced by kindness. He donated RM 20 ! Wow, i won't be so kind donate RM 20 for others. Maximum, i only will donate RM 5. Last time, i donated RM 5 for one uncle cause he look really pity. I think he got about 60 to 65 years old.. He don't have money to buy medicine, sob sob. Btw, donation is not a bad thing larr. I know some is true and some is fake wan but hor at least i got do donation for people ma. At least, i got help people.. you leh ?? God also will bless me de, hahaah. Don't bother if i or you had been cheated ! It doesn't matter already. We already donated, so no need think so much about it liao. "Hou sam yao hou pou, right ???" :D Yeah, definitely !


The 2nd unlucky.

It was me T.T I don't know where i stick this sticky and smelly things on my pants. That time i was in LRT and suddenly i realize got something sticky behind when i touched it. Then of course i go touch and see what it is ma. Waa, it looks very disgusting.. i thought i was phlegm but Pei Wen and Cho Nee said phlegm not like that wan. Phlegm won't be in white colour de.. they said maybe is bird shit... YUCKS ! but bird shit also not like this de ma.. not so invisible wan larrr. Then my second thought was.. OMG ! izit sperm... LOL, hahahaa ! Then both of them continue again.. " Har, sperm ?? Where got so easy for you to get it o.. aiyooo.. bla bla bla ". Haiz, nvm la.. after i wipe it away it will be ok wan la --' but it was really DISGUSTING LOR !! yerrrr...yuckiieee ~


The 3rd.

The 3rd wan was me too.. haiyoo, why like this deee... Ok, finaally i reached my station. While waiting for my mum.. i go find a place to sit. Then hor, i realize got one guy is looking at me. Not few sec.. is damn long lor. I don't know what is he looking at, so i don't want bother so much. Suddenly that guy come to me and ask me if i am going to the Horse Racing Club. I was stunned and i said..

No ar.. i dunno how to bet in the horse racing also..

No meh ?? You are not a friend of mine meh ??

No laaar --'

But you look similar to my friend wor.. You want to go there wan izit ??

No laarr ! i'm going back homeeee.. My mum will fetch me in few sec.

Huh really ar.. really ?? then sorry lo but you really look like my friend. Sorry ya

HELLO !! your own friend also din recognize meh --' OR maybe you want to cheat me go there huh ! really a weirdo la... i already said so many time " NO NO NO" but he still keep asking.. haizz can't help !


4th victim

The 4th was my daddy. Poor him.. haiz. His company had been broke-in for the 3rd times. Tsk tsk tsk.. :( All things was gone.. CPU, PC, tables, chairs and even my dad's feng shui things. Really cheap lor those thieves. Report police also no use.. those police makan money only, like
"Chan Foh Ta Kip ". My poor little daddy :( It is time for you to move your company already la.. That place was not safe enough.. even your neighbour also had been broke-in. Change location laaa... aiyoo !

Today was definitely not a good day. Poor Jack, poor me and poor daddy :( Nvm, tmr will be a better day for us.. NO, is a very good day for us !!!

F . A . M . I . L . Y

How much important does your family to you ? For me, is definitely important ! I know family is important to me but i don't know they are ' that ' important to me since this year, 2009 - super duper ! They are my treasure, hahaah :D

So many things happened this year and it make me realize that family means a lot to me. I don't know how if they are disappear one day.. Do you realize that your parent is getting older and older ? Do you know they are much more care about you than you did ? Do you know they sacrificed just because of you ? Do you know why they always did something that will make you angry or sad ? Don't say you know, you are just don't know and you are nothing !

For those who always said your parent is bad, stupid, heartless bla bla bla or whatever larr. I think you should change your attitude towards them. You are just don't understand why they act this way. Don't said " aiya, my parent are different to yours " and then you are wrong wrong wrong ! They also have the young time before OK ? Maybe you will understand after be someone parents one day.

Be parent is not easy. They always have to protect their family, big responsible and much more i couldn't ever say. So for now, the thing you can do is take your responsibility as a child do the thing you should do, love them and protect your family. Do something better than none. It is never too late. Just see if you want to do it or not. Late better than sorry right ?

I didn't said or mean anyone here - don't sooo perasan har, hahaa. Just don't want you all regret one day !

Be a good boy good girl :D
Love them ya , haha !

Depress :(

This few day, i feel quitee sad because of some reason.. It is because i have some problem that i don't know how to solved it. I don't know if i should ask ? I don't know who i could tell ? I don't know who is the right person to tell my problem. I just don't know how to do ! I blah out those thing here just to make myself feel better.

I scared if i asked them, they will just said " no lah.. nothing ar.. got meh? " - but behind sure got something wan lor. 2nd, i scared i was over sensitive. Maybe they really nothing wan leh. But this problem keep annoying me. So what should i do ? asked them ? No way la, i just can't do it. Maybe i really think too much. I feel something had changed but i think that who had changed is me. Maybe, i'm the one who had changed. Maybe they are still the same person. They really is a very good and nice person. I shouldn't think they all this way. Maybe i was really over sensitive la. Millions of maybe in my mind ! This problem is really troublesome. I hate being into trouble cause it makes me just don't know how to do, especially when i face this problem. I sendiri cari pasal wan - nothing to do ma, so think too much liao lor. After i done my assignment, i felt that smile is really useful. It really does changes one's life.

Everyday i put smile on my face just don't want to makes others down. I don't want they feel sad because of my problem. I just don't want they involved. So now the best solution is smile and get over those problems. Forget it and act as everything doesn't happen before, everything is the same, everything is normal and i'm back to that normal me. The craziest of me, hahaa :D

My quote - i'm not copycats. It's really written by myself wan, hahaa :D Nothing is problem, problem is nothing !

Not Me !

There is a girl, A. She secretly love one guy, M. She observed every move and act he does. A not dare to got to know him. M is a nice guy with many friend. He is.. not so handsome but he is already perfect for every girls.

One day, A meet a girl, B. They become besties after a couple of days. Surprisely, this girl, B said she know M's friend. A asked B to help her since M was her's friend's friend. So that, B can introduce to her after they know each other. B said no problem and she said definitely will help her. A very happy to hear that.

Few week later, there's still no news for A. B had changed and she always neglect A after A asked B to know M. A asked B when she will introduce M to her since they already know each others. B didn't reply and just walked away.

Come one day, A shocked after her friend told her that B is together with M - dating. A still do not believe until one day she saw it. Her heart broke and was very sad and disappointed towards B. B did not explain what has happen and still happily together with M without bother A. From that day, A know that B may not be her friend anymore cause for B, her relationship with her M is more important than friendships.

Why this thing will happen to A ? Maybe she should not asked B to help her. Just go and get to know her ownself la ! Did love really can ruined one's friendships although the time of friendships is longer than relationship ? Haiz... poor little A. I already said not me, really not me la. Don't guess liao. hahaa

Wanton Noodles PHOBIA @@

This shop la, yes THIS SHOP make me suffered from food poisoning. It make me slept in the toilet and vomit for the whole night ! Yes yes yes, i know it is look delicious in the picture.BUT anyway, the food is not bad. Just after food poisoning, i not dare to eat it anymore :( Need some time so over it @@. This shop not bad wan ar. It's called Nippy Noodles Restaurant. Ho Chak also got recommended it. Although, it cause me food poisoning but i still GOOD to promote it here for you all. If you dare, you can go and try it :D Interested ?.. nah here the address ;

No 25, Jln Kuchai Lama Maju 7, Entrepreneurs Park, Off Jalan Kuchai Lama, 58200 Kuala Lumpur

Few days back, i told my mum that food poisoning really make me suffered, especially vomiting and stomachache ! Then my mum laughed and said " When you pregnant that time is like that wan la, if you are very weak !" Oh god, that means pregnant also very suffer lor ! Yerr... I asked my mum if she got ? then she said no, only give birth for the 1st child will feel very pain and the rest so so la. Tsk tsk tsk.. 妈妈, 你幸苦了 !

Poor Me !

1) Food Poisoning again - this not the first time i have this ! blamed the 'wantan noodles' !

2) Fever.

3) Vomit and cirit-birit -Yesterday from 2am++ vomit and cirit-birit till 8am++. Ask daddy bring me to clinic

4) Sleep in the toilet. LOL

5) Stomachache



Part II lazy to updates. Wait until i got mood first. You know la, sick people usually no mood and weak wan ma :(;

Gotta rest. Bye.

One Litter of Tears

12th of feb, my grandma was sent to hospital. I was told after few days my grandma lying in the hospital ward. When i go and visit her that time, i never think about to cry or watever.

By the time i reach thr, i saw my grandma lying on the bed and she looks misery. My tear was filled in my eyes and automatically running down from my face. I quickily wipe it away. I don't want to let my grandma to see us crying infront of her.

When i reach home, i straight away went up to my room and my tears started to fall. I hide under my blanket to cry so that nobody know it. That time my heart was so pain and i feel like wanted to find somebody to talk . And i did feel better after i chat with my friend. Thanks to my friend that who willing to be my listener and cheer me up :)

That day,i cried a lot and i never cry like this badly before. Oh god, my eyes was bengkak-ed on the nex day!